Last week...

This is my last week of maternity leave.  I really can not believe it.  I'm really sad about it.  I have been up the last couple nights worrying about it.  I'm so scared to return to work and leave my baby.  Before having AJ, I thought it would be easy.  But I never knew how much I would love being at home with him.  We've just started to get into a routine and I have to leave him.  I'm so worried he will have milestones at day care and not with us like sitting up, crawling, etc.  I don't want to miss anything.  I'm also worried about being tired.  I'm so scared about being so tired from working and taking care of him.  I'm sure we will get in a routine but this sure isn't going to be easy.  Thank goodness I at least love my job!   Time will tell....

One year

It has been one year since I started my injections for IVF.  I still can't believe all we went through and that IVF worked for us our first try!   Getting pregnant was very tough for us.  We tried for over 2 years.  Seeing negative pregancy test one after the other was very hard.  I was very nervous to find out why we couldn't conceive.  I was afraid that we might not be able to and I didn't want to hear it.   But with my mother in law's encouragement, I finally got a test done to find out.  I learned I had a hydrosalpinx in my tube and would never conceive naturally.   That was a tough day. But also a good one.  We could finally move forward.  We then started down the road of IVF.  Looking back now it's so crazy to think how many doctors appointments I went to, how many times I got my blood drawn (probably close to 30) and that I self administered over 50 injections!!  But today I am holding my baby in my lap.  All so worth it.  It's amazing how many people have told me they have fertility issues.  I hope I can be beacon of hope for those people!  Infertility can be a long and scary road!   In the future if we want to conceive we will go down the IVF road again.  But we have 2 embroys that are frozen for the future.   It will cost less the second time since the most expensive part the first time is getting your eggs ready with medications and doing the aspiration.   But we now have fertilized embryos.  So for second baby (hopefully) I will need to take a little medication, and pay to keep our embroys frozen each year and pay for a second implantation.  We plan to wait a couple years to watch AJ grow up before we have second child.  The cool part is our embroys are frozen at age 30!  So even if I wait till I'm 33, our embroys will be more viable at age 30.  They say frozen embroys actually even take better than fresh!!  So hopefully when the time is right we can add to our family!! 

10 weeks

Ahh.  He's 10 weeks now!  He's grown so much.  He had his 2 month doctor visit before his trip.  He's now 10lbs 8 oz, 24 inches long and has a 16 inch head!  His weight is a little low but going up.   We have to do a weight check at the end of the month to make sure he's growing like he should.  

AJs Outtawomb tour

We spent 11 days traveling to virginia and New Jersey so AJ could meet and visit his family.    We had a wonderful trip!!   I was very nervous about flying with a newborn.  But seriously I don't think it could have gone any better.  We had a plan from the get go.   Aj nursed right before we got on the plane and as we were taking off he fell asleep.   And he slept the whole time!!  Steve had to get our rental car so I stayed at the terminal with AJ.  It took almost an hour!  Luckily I nursed AJ and then he was wide awake but was just happy.  Then we drove to my parents house.   AJ got to meet his Great Grandma, Aunt Kristi and Uncle Mike and his cousin Keira that night.  And revisit with his Grammy and Pop Pop.  The next day he met his Aunt Christy, Uncle Matt, cousins Jack and Maggie.  My best friend Lori even came for a visit.  He was a little fussy that day.  But he is used to just me and him and that was a big change!   We got to spend a few more days with my family.  It was pretty relaxing and AJ slept well.  We traveled up to NJ to be with Steve's family.   The car ride was long.  We had to stop a lot for him to eat.  Took us 8 hours when it used to take 5 1/2.  Again AJ was great until the last hour.  I think he was done being in his car seat.   We spent the weekend with Steve's family and friends. He met lots of family on Sarurday and was so good with people holding him.  He slept the best he ever has up there.  He slept 7 hours one night!!!  I woke up at 6 and checked to make sure he was breathing. Before that he was only doing about 3 hour increments.  We took him to his first pumpkin patch.  We got chilly weather for it which was perfect.  We got a couple pumpkins, cider, and went through a corn maze!  He was sleeping the whole time but we had a blast.  On the trip home AJ was awake the first half of the plane ride but then fell asleep the last half. He was perfect!  

We had such a nice trip.   It was our last for a while.  Between me being out of time off and the cost of daycare we won't be able to travel much.  So we are so glad we were able to get home to introduce our baby!